damn...

I'm blogging...whoo...

anyways...i'm probably not going to bother much with this....

lately...i feel like i've been drifting around...sure...i go to college and all that stuff...but it was only out of the habits that have been ingrained into my systems....ever since i left KDU...I haven't felt truly alive.

the thing is...even when handling the event...i still felt pretty lethargic...

the only few times that i truly awoke was one i was immersed in competition...in Taylors...since i couldn't get in to the basketball team due to my eyesight (that has never bothered me damn it!!!)...and my own limited skills....the only competition i could get was in the dark pool halls...

i admit...at first it thought it would be a boring game...i was wrong...

though it's still a far cry from the intensity and passion found in basketball...in its own way...pool is an intense game...

contemplating every angle...the amount of strength you put into each shot...

Even though i've lost a lot of time...that fire that I thought i only felt when playing basketball...ignites every time i play...

its enough to keep me awake...

....but its still not basketball...

I'm starving...starving for the game...

in KDU...i used to play it almost everyday...and then now...to only be able to play it once a week....is unbearable...

tropicana is no longer enough to sustain my need....the majority of the players here are...not challenging...

in truth...i really miss Sri KDU...every time i pass the place...i feel a gnawing feeling in my heart...when i hear of the activities going on there...i feel a pang that i'm no longer part of it....

i want more than anything to step through those gates again...but...

maybe...i will...if only once more....

for me...its not the place that makes me miss it...rather...its the people i've met there...when the juniors are gone...i'll probably not even think about it anymore...

maybe...i'll see you guys again...

i certainly hope so...

anyway....i've met a bunch of interesting people in Taylors...but that is a story for another time....