basketball.....=)

.....where do i start???.....

this is the game that changed my life....gave me a sense of purpose....i love it....

a few years ago....i was an overweight, lazy and unmotivated person, bitter a everything and very anti-social...(well, i'm just awkward now....)

what got me started???...Slamdunk...

.....for the past two years i have been cursing myself for being stupid enough to give basketball up at one point....if only i hadn't....

.....i love this game so damn much....i love everything about it, the sound of the ball swishing through the net, the feel of it in my hands, a group of people working together to score a point...its beautiful....

...how did this sport change my life???....

...first of all....it helped me lose weight...
.....it made me work hard...because there are so many talented players out there...and i want to be able to beat them....
....it motivated me...i wanted to be the best....and i still do.....
....it opened me up and enabled to meet a lot of wonderful people....a few of whom i'll name here....

Seh Yung

Sheng Loong

Sam

Alastair (Chester....haha...that one still cracks me up...)

Russell Woo

Bernie

Nicole

Brian

........and a whole lot more....

mom is always telling me to take up a sport which is possible for me to be successful (meaning where i can make money....)....like golf...

....i'm already a stubborn person....but this is where no one can touch me....i turn off if i hear the words 'give up' and 'basketball' in the same sentence....

....the NBA....hell, even the Malaysian team are probably beyond my reach...but i'll never give this sport up...not until every bone in my body is broken....every muscle withered...age will have to beat me down to a senile old man before i quit....

...some of my closest friends call me gay for choosing to play this sport over meeting girls at times....i don't care....you'll never understand what this sport means to me....

its my passion....my life....my love....

my first true love....

.....and i truly love it.....

....that's the damn truth....

....random...i know....but i felt i just had to get this off my chest....

random thoughts....

i went to Cheer 08...it was awesome...

had a little trouble with transport though....luckily Ilham gave me a lift to the LRT station....thanks dude...

anyways....i just thought about my own cheerleading days....

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....damn...

yes, i was a cheerleader...one of the first guy cheerleaders in KDU...though i doubt anyone remembers....but back then, my role was to just pick up the girls, lift them up, throw them up into the air and catch them....now, they have an all boys team.....haha....makes me feel really old....but the Stunners....both guys and girls....were awesome....you all are number one in my book....

so i hung out with my brothers a week back....hah, many of them are already corrupted by college life....a few pics anyways....

after a few months of not seeing each other...what do we do....play the PS2.....=.=

................damn......i'm not going to explain what happened here.....

so...the homies and i got together....we did our thing....which is nothing.....

the holidays suck.....

my parents always told me to treasure my time in school....'cuz i'm going to miss it when i leave....i didn't believe them.....

......i do now.....

....i'm missing Sri KDU......a lot.....

......i miss bugging mr. yow.......

....i miss playing basketball in the scorching sun with the basketball team......

.....i miss untucking my shirt so that any random teacher would tell me to tuck it in.....

......above all.....i miss my friends.....

....humans fear what they don't know.....i guess that's why we're so scared of death....cuz we don't know what is on the other side.....

....religion tells us what to expect....so that is what we expect.....but on that bridge between life and death.....we realise that its a gamble....a gamble of faith.....

as a muslim....i believe in heaven, hell and the final judgement.....but yet....i can't help but feel a twinge of fear every time i think of death.....

....i'm scared the if there is an afterlife.....i lose my sense of self.....

.....i'm scared to lose my identity.....

....i'm scared to lose my memories.....

......i'm scared to lose my existence.....

what if there's....nothing.....just an empty void.....that is what scares me the most.....

....nothingness...you just.....disappear.....like you never existed.....

.....right now though, what's making me a little sad may be the fact that i might be forgotten....how many of the people that i might throughout the course of my life would be able to recall me??.....

granted....i've forgotten a few myself.....but still....its sad....

especially all the wonderful people i met in KDU......i don't want to forget you guys....ever....

.......damn......