random thoughts....

i went to Cheer 08...it was awesome...

had a little trouble with transport though....luckily Ilham gave me a lift to the LRT station....thanks dude...

anyways....i just thought about my own cheerleading days....

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....damn...

yes, i was a cheerleader...one of the first guy cheerleaders in KDU...though i doubt anyone remembers....but back then, my role was to just pick up the girls, lift them up, throw them up into the air and catch them....now, they have an all boys team.....haha....makes me feel really old....but the Stunners....both guys and girls....were awesome....you all are number one in my book....

so i hung out with my brothers a week back....hah, many of them are already corrupted by college life....a few pics anyways....

after a few months of not seeing each other...what do we do....play the PS2.....=.=

................damn......i'm not going to explain what happened here.....

so...the homies and i got together....we did our thing....which is nothing.....

the holidays suck.....

my parents always told me to treasure my time in school....'cuz i'm going to miss it when i leave....i didn't believe them.....

......i do now.....

....i'm missing Sri KDU......a lot.....

......i miss bugging mr. yow.......

....i miss playing basketball in the scorching sun with the basketball team......

.....i miss untucking my shirt so that any random teacher would tell me to tuck it in.....

......above all.....i miss my friends.....

....humans fear what they don't know.....i guess that's why we're so scared of death....cuz we don't know what is on the other side.....

....religion tells us what to expect....so that is what we expect.....but on that bridge between life and death.....we realise that its a gamble....a gamble of faith.....

as a muslim....i believe in heaven, hell and the final judgement.....but yet....i can't help but feel a twinge of fear every time i think of death.....

....i'm scared the if there is an afterlife.....i lose my sense of self.....

.....i'm scared to lose my identity.....

....i'm scared to lose my memories.....

......i'm scared to lose my existence.....

what if there's....nothing.....just an empty void.....that is what scares me the most.....

....nothingness...you just.....disappear.....like you never existed.....

.....right now though, what's making me a little sad may be the fact that i might be forgotten....how many of the people that i might throughout the course of my life would be able to recall me??.....

granted....i've forgotten a few myself.....but still....its sad....

especially all the wonderful people i met in KDU......i don't want to forget you guys....ever....

.......damn......